grace the skies with your presence! sing out to those who will listen! the heavens won’t know what hit ‘em!

so today’s been certainly interesting to say the least.

so it started out with my GENIUS plan starting, and the first step was to get a SIM card. so i walked all the way to the vodafone shop in the middle of town (a good half hour away) in my completely wrecked shoes. i mean seriously, these things have holes everywhere, and i’m practically walking on nothing but my socks, except with a sharp pain everytime i walk because of how the sole is. it’s crossed, and it hurts alot. so i walked all the way down, and paid a fiver for the SIM card. only i could have got it for free since they have a voucher thing which i didn’t find out until afterwards, in which they were reluctant to give me a free SIM. so there’s money gone.

anyways, i went to see grandma for a bit, and by now my feet were in really bad shape. i mean REALLY sore, close to bleeding etc. it wasn’t nice. i eventually make it home and sorted the phone out, all registered and what not, completely working. phase one gone, next step is sending it. but there i hit a snag, because my current phone now refuses to charge. at all. i mean it’s been dying for weeks now and usually refuses to charge, but it eventually works. only not this time. it’s now dead. completely. snap goes the plan. that really put me in a bad mood. that, and the fact that it was 3 years ago today (or around) that my grandad died. why am i so upset? i never got to say goodbye. he went to hospital and i never visited him. then i wake up one day and my mother tells me he’s gone. this blog title is about him.

anyways, i come here and talk to hen again. only she’s had a bad day too. so that’s not a good mix. we had a massive argument. but we’re fine now. we argue alot. but we love each other more. anyways, i managed to win at monopoly today. 3 other players and i bankrupt every single one without having to mortgage a single property. i love my phone.

and right now i can’t get enough of 65daysofstatic. and the tickets for bright eyes are booked, just need to book the coach now.

speaking of dates, about 2 years ago this time me and dominic embarked on a beautiful friendship that lasts to this day. so here’s a nice story, it’s a good one i promise!

ok, so i frequent an IRC (chat) network associated with a gaming website. but yes, this is where i met dom (who went by the internet alias of pot). anyways, i didn’t talk to him much but we would have the odd conversation every now and then. anyways, about then my internet got cut off (since i was ADDICTED) and wouldn’t return for months. when it did however, dom started talking to me, asking where i lived. i was curious, but i told him anyways. anyway, turns out he had been staying here for a weekend with his girlfriend. well! i was furious! he was down here and didn’t tell me so we didn’t meet up! god! anyway, he asked me if i knew an “alison brown”. of course, i’d known alison for years and sat next to her in english. turns out, that was his girlfriend. anyways, it hit off from there, and dom got me into alot of the music i’m into today! so yes, that is my good friend dominic.

post-post (after the post-rock).

so this weekend wasn’t too eventful. i spent most of it talking to whoever i could (henrietta). since vodafone is now a complete skengy bitch when it comes to free calls, it’s hard to find time to talk to her. so i came up with an ingenius plan to send her my old phone, a sim card and a charger this week so we can talk this weekend. i don’t know how much it is going to cost me, but hopefully it’ll be worth it. it’s also kelvin’s birthday party this saturday. god i need money.

this week will be focusing on bumping up all the grades of my work. so far i’m guessing they’re around pass level, so i need merits and distinctions! (equivalent to B and A grades),

your heart in my fist, teal is ___.

so yesterday was mine and henrietta’s 6 month anniversary. that probably doesn’t mean anything to you lot, but we’ve been through hell and christ else knows.

love you hen.

going through a door sideways.

okay, so on 7th and 8th july, i will be in birmingham again. firstly, to see bright eyes with henrietta. secondly, to spend time with henrietta. and dom, of course. yes, dom said it was alright to stay at his house on BOTH those days (what a great guy) so i’m all set! next up is money.

sorry for that post yesterday, everything was really getting to me. everything has been alright so far, i’ve been talking to hen a bit and i’ve managed to get sorted. but today is the major deadline, everything has to be in today, or else. and i’m working hard to finish everything off. i’ll have to come in next week of course, just to touch everything up, but if i can get the bulk of it done today, i should be alright. wish me luck!

there are some great new releases out so far, then some not so great leaks. like the new portugal. the man. its not that great. the new pornographers, and the few new tracks from animal collective’s album are great also. there’s also new iron & wine which is great, new minus the bear which i haven’t heard yet, new hell is for heroes (haven’t heard), and much much more. god i can’t wait to get home to get this. i miss the internet .

this will employ you.

i feel really down at the moment. so i guess i’ll take this opportunity to do what every other 17 year old with a blog does, and complain about life. quite frankly, i feel depressed. i’m worn out, i’m stressed, i just can’t focus anymore. i am constantly unmotivated and i ache and everything else. i’m constantly being hounded by the fact that i will probably fail college. that and being so far from henrietta, not being able to talk to her when i want and constantly having to fork out money to put on my phone just to talk to her for 50 minutes. all my money goes on talking to henrietta. i mean, it’s not that i don’t enjoy it, i love talking to her, but it just leaves me with nothing. i’d like to save up, buy myself things and everything else, but how can i? on top of that, i just feel uncared for, unloved. like everyone hates me. i feel ugly. really.

me and henrietta had a bit of a row last night. she has problems, and i listened to her, and tried to help her out. though i was in a mood and cranky since i’d just been woken up. that and i was absolutely shitting myself because of today. when my work is due in. so sorry for not being so supportive. i hope everything went ok with her day. i got quite angry, but i’m not entirely sure why. i think it was the fact that she was getting really upset over something so silly, but i forget about all the issues and problems she has. i’m an awful person, aren’t i? yeah, i quite hate myself right now.

sorry i can’t be the best person in the world. sorry i can’t be perfect. or amazing. i feel like i should be sorry.

about this work, well, we finished off our video in multimedia, so that’s done. still got 3D modelling to finish, and there’s no signs of it ending soon, so that’s what i’m incredibly worried about. sorry for being depressed or something.

fuck sake. and rod has hiccups. exciting.

shout out to tian, who turned 18 yesterday.